复杂的心情。

这个世界很复杂，
这个世界的人更复杂，
这个世界的我心情不知如何形容！


完！

06.10.2010 , 23.44

Today,

I'm too boring at home,

then feel to update blog.

I just update my FB account,

I HAVE A LONG WISH LIST!!!!

I feel wanna buy many of things,

clothes,pants,accessories,bag,watch,iphone,ipod touch, and many many..

Why I'm a poor student..

I wan have unlimited money in my account...

but this is I.M.P.O.S.S.I.B.L.E !

haha!

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This afternoon,

I with him and his family member went Jalan Kuali there look the the house..

His dad wanna buy him a house..

So we went to have a look,

and his big bro & 3rd bro wanna buy also..

We have look for 3-4 unit condo,

this 4 condo also different view and different feel..

Me & him just feel that : of course we wan and wish have own house and own space..

Even his dad pay the down payment for him..

Who don't wan have their own house and space..

But...

for our financial,

is very very hard to have our own sweet home..

unless, his salary getting up!

:)

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Recently feel very stress,

many of assignment coming to me..

I have no idea with it to start..

I'm not happy recently stay in my own house..

She make me wanna move out..

I feel i'm the extra in this house..

I have no more choice...

I have upset...

totally upset...

I just feel wanna stop my study and went out work when argue with YOU....

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Friend in this world are important,

but once we grown up,

Friend are W.H.A.T ?

They have their own space, own things to do..

I just feel that I really have NO MORE F.R.I.E.N.D...

because FRIEND , also end up with E.N.D

mayb I'm the one really don't know how to communicate with people..

He always say so...

I also think about that,

Sometimes, I really got some feel to do 'something'

and

Recently, I feel I'm very extra also...

Keep give the people around me trouble,

and I just keep say sorry sorry..

I really don't know what can I do...

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7.11.2010, 12.11AM

I have a conclusion,

Everything, just do it myself.

Won't give anyone TROUBLE :)

Finally HAPPEN...

hmm..

Maybe I really misunderstand both of you...

but after I saw your post...

hmm..

What I want to say is...

Are you also changed?

Everyone also will grown ups...

Sure will be changed..

Maybe I'm changed...

but I try to change to MATURE...

& not childish...

Maybe my mine change to mature and u're not habit with it...

I don't know..

I don't know what I changed...

only peoples know..

I've chat with you today with text..

I don't know you've get my means or not...

You said that my man not happy with You...

Do you think before why he not happy with you?

Do you think your attitude problem?

The way you talk, not everyone also can accept it..

I knew you have confidence to yourselves...

So the way you talk also different...

He is my boy friend , he is my man...

We got our life...

The way he change his hair, what he having his girl friend like enough..

No need add more comment on it...

I know maybe I write this you will not happy that I just help my boy friends...

please think back to the way...

if I said that your boy friend face like 'SHIT' like 'HAI' ...

what your respond?!

I glad to know it..

Every time you refer my hand phone nevermind,..

I wouldn't mind with it...

BUT ....

when you refer...

with your boy friend start to satire his hair..

either me also including ....

Who will happy with it?!!?

& I just keep inside my heart din't told you....

Lastly,

I knew that you treat me as BEST FRIEND..

GOOD friend,

I knew that you also hope our friendship can maintain forever and ever...

I also think this way before....

But...

Do you realize that you very scare lose?

What I buy , what I do you also want to get it?

I have many examples actually...

from the time my boy friends get his car,

you feel your boy friend also wan get his car,

from the time that I start to drive to college,

you feel you also wan drive to college,

from the time I bought any clothes, dress, shoes, bag whatever...

you also feel wanna go and check the prices and get it...

from the time I go where, for example pd..

you also feel you wanna go ...

AND many....

DO YOU REALIZE THAT?

do you know what I feel?

I will feel stress actually...

What I having you also try to get it...

MAYBE the way you think is..

WE ARE BEST FRIEND ..

so whatever I get you also wan it...

maybe we are ji mui...like everything also want the same...

&

I ALSO TOLD YOU MANY TIMES before....

DIFFERENT PPL....I also lazy to type already...

I also knew that you never force your boy friends...

he also willing to buy anything to you...

I ALSO HEARD YOU SAID BEFORE...

paktoh IS TOTALLY materialistic ...

I really no comment with it....

Maybe I just a low level and poor student...

can't compare with you...

BUT...

I wan to said to you is...

I NEVER COMPARE BEFORE...

YOU IS THE ONLY LIKE TO COMPARE...

MAYBE I write this you will very very very very..

HATE & ANGRY me...

I don't know...

I actually wanna try to say face to face to you before..

but I realize can't do that..

CAUSE U SAID..

YA...I LIKE TO COMPARE...

I really heard it...

HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I SAID..

and keep it in heart...

I ALSO HOPE it won't spoil our Friendship.

WoW! ENG XIAO ZHUANG is BACK..XD

ahem...
such a long time never update my blog...
and suddenly feel like wanna update..
by the way wanna update my blog..
I forgot everything...including my link..
I found back my blog through EVE CHEOK blog...XD
and when I view back my post that I had post before...
really....quite....FUNNY...lol..

Recently,
wanna thanks my man...
He bought me many things..
He try to help me achieve all the things that I need..
Quite Touch ♥















Everyone had the different situation..
We try to achieve our hope step by step..
With not follow everyone..
Done by ourselves..
& we can do it my Dear ♥




















Wanna say sorry to my Man..
I'm a stupid girl Friend..
Just know to cook spaghetti...
I will try my best to cook others for you..
But I know you will forgive me ♥

















''Secret Recipe..
Fine Quality Cakes...''

I lub so much their cheese cake...even I knew is fat...
But he bought me..
sure I'll finish it...


My man,
Really wanna thx u...
I don't know how to show You..
But You know my Heart then OKAY ady ^^


Elaine Chong Yi Lin,
haha...
don't get shock when I write this for you..
now...You had enter to KDU...
every time I saw your post..
almost 70% also emo...
hehe...
everything got me Eng Xiao Zhuang & Eve Cheok Boon Ang k...
em..
Recently you also bz yours...n me n eve also bz final..
find day to starbucks talk ok!
We ♥ You ..

Meaningless....

Don't know why...

this few day keep crying without anyone know...

feel like....

no one care my anymore..

just feel like...

my best friend...my family...even him ...

also gone....><

i'm not wanna say this to hurt anyone of u...

em....just my feel...

i don't why will feel this also...

i'm not u all to 'tong qing' me also...

i write this just wanna release my feel....

MAYBe some of u will say i write this is to 'pok tong qing'..

so...i better stay alone....

what also decide myself...

mean...anti-social ba...

lolx....

bye bye...

I Started..

I started another life..
I started to get easy to cry...
I began to think many things..
I began to think that me do that is right or not..
I began to think that is it suffer to me arnot..
I began to think that is it better for him after I make this decision..
Maybe I'm always do something wrong..
Maybe I often treat him not very friendly and not considerate..
Sorry
I know you have worked very hard to do the best..
原谅我是这样的女生。。
I think..
I need to CHANGE..
But ..
Give me some times..