Sunday, February 20, 2011

我很开心。:(

其实,
你做的所有事情,
我都知道的,

其实,
你忍受的态度,
我也都知道的。

其实,
你为我做的事情,
我更加知道。

你可以说我的脾气真的不好,
你可以说我是变脸大师,
你可以说我是个爱哭鬼,
你可以说我从来就不了解你,
你可以说我一点都我不体谅你。

因为,我只是一个麻烦。
真的,
我认了。
你无数次的在提醒我,
一而再再而三的提醒我。
真的很谢谢。


也许,
每个人的立场都不一样,
你有你的立场,
我有我的立场,
当然,
你有你的看法,
当然我也有我自己的看法。

两个人在一起,
辛辛苦苦建立的爱情,
很难得的一段关系,
当然,也是要互相容忍,互相扶持。
所以,你有你的付出,
当让我也有觉得我付出的东西,
可能也只是不一样的东西。
有时候,
我会做错事,
你会试着去原谅,
你做错事,
我当然会体谅。
我知道,
我都很少说对不起,
但其实,
我都知道是我的错。
我真的都知道。



说真的,
我真的很不相信Promise 这回事,
未来的东西,
未来的事情,
根本没有人能预测。
也许有一天,
你对某个她有了感觉,
真的也说不定,
我对某个他有了感觉也说不定。
也许有一天,
我和你结婚了,
也说不定。
因为这都是未来。


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真的,
如果,
我说真的,
你真的对我累了,
随时告诉我。
因为,
你有你的看法和做法。
也许,真的很多人都举脚赞成。
(请不要说我又在作出这样你行为或语言,
我重来没有想要放弃过,
只是你再提醒我)

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有的时候,
每次把自己装得很坚强,
我不会在朋友面前哭,
有,但是,五跟手指可以数得完。
在朋友面前哭完了,
还要装到很坚强,
好像没有哭过一样。
还要继续唱k。
有时觉得我自己很可笑。


但是面对你,
是你让我依赖,
让我感觉到有安全感。
从来没有人知道我的心事,
可能有一天真的会爆炸,
但是,有时候,
都会忍不住在你面前哭,
然后你都帮我擦眼泪,
把我紧紧抱住,
好喜欢这样的感觉。
是你,
让我觉得没有被所有人抛弃,
是你让我觉我我自己,
还有,
那么一点点的价值。
就那么一点点。


其实,
我也只是希望你花更多的时间陪我,
不管做什么事情都好,
我也只是希望你更加的疼我,
不管是什么时候,
可能,
你做不到100% ,
但是80% 也好啦,
不然60% 也好,
可以吗?
我会做好你的女朋友,
好吗?

一次过写了两篇”作文“,
可能有很多的废话,
很多的矛盾,
可能有很多你很不喜欢的东西,
但是,
真的是我心里的话,
但是,
你每次看了,
都没有反应,
我也不知道要哭还是要笑。




难道我不重要了吗? :'(





* Sorry to my friends to read all my funny things,
Friends, just ignore it ya..

也许有一天,我真的遍体鳞伤,真的累了。。。

也许有一天,我真的遍体鳞伤,真的累了。。。
这种事什么话?
累了?
给一个女生听到了,
会是什么感觉?
如果你真的累了,
你真的觉得我很麻烦,和我在一起很累,
这句话是什么意思?
我真的很心痛。

我不需要你的任何解释。
到时又会和我说是讲着这个那个,
我不要。

你的工作,
我什么也帮不上忙,
你的前途一片光芒,
难道你就不觉得我是你的绊脚石吗?
难道你觉得你说出这样的话可以让我好过吗?

我让你去做你想做的事情,
是因为我不想要绑住你,
让你去做你想做的东西,
我不需要你的陪伴。
你说,
如果我礼拜也做工,
那我们不是不用拍拖,
那你觉得现在有差吗?
你也希望我去做吧。

不是说我什么都不告诉你,
我知道你为了很多事情在烦恼,
我也真的真的真的真的真的真的不想给你任何麻烦。
说,我不担心,
是假的。
这个社会有各种各样的人,
各种各样的美女,
我,算是什么?







你,不一样了。















可能就像你所说的,
这所有都是我的问题。
你不需要做任何的改变。

Thursday, February 17, 2011

2nd Valentine's day

weee...
14th of February..
My man haven start his new job yet,
and I plan to go for class,
and after that go 1 Utama,
But when I reached college,
I realize that I Naik Kereta!
WTF!
LOL..
no choice, 
then we directly go to 1 UTAMA to brunch..
At first, 
Plan to eat Italian food,
After that I feel to eat Delicious,
But, many people and need to wait  :(
then we decided to go ..
>>>>> Garden..

 Me!! Face round round and fu*king round! ha..
The other round face with messy hair!!

And my hubby boy, 
LOL,
With his messy hair also! :P 
 
 He is planting the "grass" .. LOL.. 
Tadang, I like their stir..
With Flower :) 
Drinking soup..
Handsome?!
:P 
em...can win someone lo!  XD
His set, beef burger ..
look nice...
But its warm..
em...This mine..
Its warm too...not hot at all..
Is it western style?
I prefer hot food rather than warm..LOL..


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Come On,
Time to show his 'Hands make" Card
Can I name it as hands make?
em...anyway,
its using hand also! ha..
tadang...
very cute~!
I like it very much...

All my presented present..
wee..
Feel to ask what is the CD with hand?
ha...
He burn for me,
Inside the CD?
With the song he sang himself!
Awh...
Sweet :P

eh...Don't play play ar..
With lyrics also! 
:P
I don't know why when I rotate,
After come here can't also...
Stupiak!

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Anyway,
Thx my hubby to accompany for 2nd Valentine's day!
We must do it forever & ever ..
ILY :)

Why I upload this?
Cause this picture take by my man,
And looks on my nose!
awh! so tall man!
XD
for me la...haha..



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For my man,
I know you very tired with this new job,
need go for Damansara so far to work,
and with everyday JAM highway..
Need wake up early,
And reach home lately..
And cant accompany me.. :(

But today you told me that You
 handle for the design organization,
Really feel proud of YOU...
:)
Done it as well that you can do!
I'll always by your site!
Add oil!
I love my designer BOY FRIEND!
I wan PAUL FRANK T-SHIRT,
UNDER,STOCKING and whatever!
:P


This song very sweet,
That sing by Olivia Ong!
She is awesome and cute,
Click and listen :)







Sunday, February 13, 2011

Hola :)

I have nothing to do when this evening rainy day...
He was sleeping..
And I hope can Win Money tonight,
But don't know whether got kaki or not  :P
Can call me " Lan Dou Guai" XD

I in relationship with Bosco Chen Woon Beng :D
Actually already recover Wednesday ,
But we purposely act that we break up..
Ha...
Sorry my Friends,
Thru this,
I knew that I had many friends worry me.. * Touched :)
Anyway, thx a lot ya...especially 
Nelle & Sam accompany me sing K,
Eve & Elaine accompany me watch movie.. :)

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This cartoon so cute rite?
Did you all recognize this is me? XD
He design for me...
I like it very much.. :*




























Actually I purposely wanna update for my SS picture only...
I like to take myself under the sun,
My hair color got a little bit like 'Duck shit Green"
lol....LIKE THOSE KOREAN? XD
shhh....I know I know...JUST keep in HEART  okay....:P


Ta dangggggggggggggg.....
 The bag I bought for him..
PUMA!!!!
hehe....suit with his watch and shoes...
One set of PUMA ady!
WOW!!
hehe...hope he really like it...


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Still considering wanna go for tomorrow class or not.. ><
And no idea where to celebrate Valentine tim...
My Smelly man :
I know your financial problem,
really its okay without the valentine present,
You had bought many things to me!
We can stay together also very sweet ady...XD
Just Diy your "独一无二" things for me..
I know you doing right now...
wink ...:P

Anyway! 
Enjoy your Valentine'S day TOMORROW friends!  :)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

9th of February..

Today, 9th of February..
Actually I already plan to watch movie alone,
But I text him in 10am,
I asked him free or not,
I knew he will not reply me and after that I send him,
Its okay, sorry for disturb..
But after that he reply me said that he had go Pj for work,
Maybe he go with his colleague to know where is his office,
But I don't know..
I don't like the situation like this,
I don't know whether what he doing,
where he going,
and everything!
So, after that,
I still go for pavilion for movie alone,
This is my 1st time, 
Maybe will got 2nd, 3rd and many chances,
Whatever..

I feel sad that like no one caring me,
no one will care where I go,
What I did,
I feel sad that no one calling me baby or whatever..
If really no more love in your heart,
Tell me early please!
I don't want the situation right now!
Very Very suffer!


















The picture before going out..













And I had bought something to him for Valentines,
I don't know whether he like or not,
But I knew he need this..

When going back home,
I really miss him,
wish to know what he doing,
I purposely go his house to have a look,
I don't know where he going,
His car at his house,
He never drive out his car..
Of course at the time,
I start to think many things.
But who care?
No one know , no one care!

 












When reach home, take again picture with the ticket, lol

At the same time,
I receive a text from his friends,
asked me what happen to me and him,
and I tell him in a short form,
Of course , I feel that he stand at his side to comfort me,
But I really no agree with him,
He said that he always 忍,everyone also saw he 忍,
Of course,I know he always 忍 me,
Feel very sad when I saw this,
Like I very hard to communicate and stay together.
And he asked me,
你有没有想过你们真的适合吗?
I just feel that,
He like asking me to go away from his life.Or
Maybe I think too much again.
But from this,
I remember that he said before,
没有适不适合,只有愿不愿意。
If the one really love and care,
I think he will do whatever he willing to do.

Maybe he really tired of this,
I knew I had do wrong things,
I had said wrong words,
hm..but I really suffer with the situation right now..
My man, If u really feel tired,
Please let me know,
I will let you go.
I LOVE YOU.