解释 , 是什么？

 解释，是什么意思？
我相信你在等我的回应吧。
我觉得可笑的是，
为什么事我去找你解释，
而不是你来找我解释。


事情发生后，
我block 了你，
但是后来你也都把我删除啦！




是不是想图片里一样？
你自己心里知道。

















也许，
删除了对方，大家都有好处吧。
但是，
如果以我认识你的经验，
你还是会来看我的Profile。

很多人都问我，
最近是怎么了，
一直猛写很气的话，
不知道我和你的事的人，
会认为我很不好，
知道我的事的，
都很为我生气。

姐妹情深，又是什么？

这三年里，

当然有很多很好的回忆，

但是这半年里，

我们的感情，

就被你活生生的毁了。

哈，

你一定很生气。

你会说，我也没有完全对！

对，我没有完全对！

但是，你是大错特错！！

在这件事还没发生之前，

当那时也有误会的时候，

我也已经告诉你了，

是不是你的态度的问题。

你喜欢比较，

对！当然比较可以让你自己更加进步。

但是，也只能做 ：跟尾狗。

不好听对吗？

那就做回自己。

你自己当然也有优点，

不一定要完完全全跟完别人。

回来重点，

对，

你和她解释了。

哈，

所有人听了你所谓的解释，

也都是一样的回答，

要也找一些比较有可能性的理由。
Lecture 叫Bosco ，真的真的真的很好笑。
用BOSCO 很委屈的话就不要用！
看你的弟弟，写到自己好像很委屈。
还要叫别人看他的profile。
如果你当我是朋友的话，
你就应该阻止他的动作，
但是你不但没有，
还在那里雪上加霜！

就像你说的 ：你在我心里，

你是这样的人吗？

我看了那短片和所谓的留言后，

你在我心目中就再也不是说位的姐妹朋友了。

真的真的真的很讽刺。
也许你有你的立场，
但是我也有有我的立场，

就像你的男朋友说的啊，

翻脸就翻脸啊！

没有什么大不了，

你没有了我，

你也不会死，

反正，你有你的男朋友就够了。

可以打死很多个了。

不讲不讲，

也讲了那么多，

不得罪的也得罪了，

我也只是在为你的朋友们着想，

你们的其中一个朋友也删除你们了吧，

其实，你们有没有想过是不是你们的问题？
我也只是为其他还没有删除你的朋友们着想，

我也只是提出而已，

你们可以不用做回应和改变。

是，你们想些什么，做什么，

都可以，

但是，

其实可以不用那么那么的公开。

面子书，是一个PUBLIC 的网站。

其实，

遗憾是会有那么的一点点，

也许我们也没有必要做到这样。

但是，

我也不知道要如何形容。

你过你的生活，我过我的生活吧。

还有，

看看我上面的slogan 吧。

绝对没有别的意思。 :)

以上是我个人意见，

可以做作参考，

可以不必回应，

不想看，就到右上边，

轻轻按一下那个X，

就可以了。

完。

复杂的心情。

这个世界很复杂，
这个世界的人更复杂，
这个世界的我心情不知如何形容！


完！

06.10.2010 , 23.44

Today,

I'm too boring at home,

then feel to update blog.

I just update my FB account,

I HAVE A LONG WISH LIST!!!!

I feel wanna buy many of things,

clothes,pants,accessories,bag,watch,iphone,ipod touch, and many many..

Why I'm a poor student..

I wan have unlimited money in my account...

but this is I.M.P.O.S.S.I.B.L.E !

haha!

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This afternoon,

I with him and his family member went Jalan Kuali there look the the house..

His dad wanna buy him a house..

So we went to have a look,

and his big bro & 3rd bro wanna buy also..

We have look for 3-4 unit condo,

this 4 condo also different view and different feel..

Me & him just feel that : of course we wan and wish have own house and own space..

Even his dad pay the down payment for him..

Who don't wan have their own house and space..

But...

for our financial,

is very very hard to have our own sweet home..

unless, his salary getting up!

:)

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Recently feel very stress,

many of assignment coming to me..

I have no idea with it to start..

I'm not happy recently stay in my own house..

She make me wanna move out..

I feel i'm the extra in this house..

I have no more choice...

I have upset...

totally upset...

I just feel wanna stop my study and went out work when argue with YOU....

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Friend in this world are important,

but once we grown up,

Friend are W.H.A.T ?

They have their own space, own things to do..

I just feel that I really have NO MORE F.R.I.E.N.D...

because FRIEND , also end up with E.N.D

mayb I'm the one really don't know how to communicate with people..

He always say so...

I also think about that,

Sometimes, I really got some feel to do 'something'

and

Recently, I feel I'm very extra also...

Keep give the people around me trouble,

and I just keep say sorry sorry..

I really don't know what can I do...

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7.11.2010, 12.11AM

I have a conclusion,

Everything, just do it myself.

Won't give anyone TROUBLE :)

Finally HAPPEN...

hmm..

Maybe I really misunderstand both of you...

but after I saw your post...

hmm..

What I want to say is...

Are you also changed?

Everyone also will grown ups...

Sure will be changed..

Maybe I'm changed...

but I try to change to MATURE...

& not childish...

Maybe my mine change to mature and u're not habit with it...

I don't know..

I don't know what I changed...

only peoples know..

I've chat with you today with text..

I don't know you've get my means or not...

You said that my man not happy with You...

Do you think before why he not happy with you?

Do you think your attitude problem?

The way you talk, not everyone also can accept it..

I knew you have confidence to yourselves...

So the way you talk also different...

He is my boy friend , he is my man...

We got our life...

The way he change his hair, what he having his girl friend like enough..

No need add more comment on it...

I know maybe I write this you will not happy that I just help my boy friends...

please think back to the way...

if I said that your boy friend face like 'SHIT' like 'HAI' ...

what your respond?!

I glad to know it..

Every time you refer my hand phone nevermind,..

I wouldn't mind with it...

BUT ....

when you refer...

with your boy friend start to satire his hair..

either me also including ....

Who will happy with it?!!?

& I just keep inside my heart din't told you....

Lastly,

I knew that you treat me as BEST FRIEND..

GOOD friend,

I knew that you also hope our friendship can maintain forever and ever...

I also think this way before....

But...

Do you realize that you very scare lose?

What I buy , what I do you also want to get it?

I have many examples actually...

from the time my boy friends get his car,

you feel your boy friend also wan get his car,

from the time that I start to drive to college,

you feel you also wan drive to college,

from the time I bought any clothes, dress, shoes, bag whatever...

you also feel wanna go and check the prices and get it...

from the time I go where, for example pd..

you also feel you wanna go ...

AND many....

DO YOU REALIZE THAT?

do you know what I feel?

I will feel stress actually...

What I having you also try to get it...

MAYBE the way you think is..

WE ARE BEST FRIEND ..

so whatever I get you also wan it...

maybe we are ji mui...like everything also want the same...

&

I ALSO TOLD YOU MANY TIMES before....

DIFFERENT PPL....I also lazy to type already...

I also knew that you never force your boy friends...

he also willing to buy anything to you...

I ALSO HEARD YOU SAID BEFORE...

paktoh IS TOTALLY materialistic ...

I really no comment with it....

Maybe I just a low level and poor student...

can't compare with you...

BUT...

I wan to said to you is...

I NEVER COMPARE BEFORE...

YOU IS THE ONLY LIKE TO COMPARE...

MAYBE I write this you will very very very very..

HATE & ANGRY me...

I don't know...

I actually wanna try to say face to face to you before..

but I realize can't do that..

CAUSE U SAID..

YA...I LIKE TO COMPARE...

I really heard it...

HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I SAID..

and keep it in heart...

I ALSO HOPE it won't spoil our Friendship.

WoW! ENG XIAO ZHUANG is BACK..XD

ahem...
such a long time never update my blog...
and suddenly feel like wanna update..
by the way wanna update my blog..
I forgot everything...including my link..
I found back my blog through EVE CHEOK blog...XD
and when I view back my post that I had post before...
really....quite....FUNNY...lol..

Recently,
wanna thanks my man...
He bought me many things..
He try to help me achieve all the things that I need..
Quite Touch ♥















Everyone had the different situation..
We try to achieve our hope step by step..
With not follow everyone..
Done by ourselves..
& we can do it my Dear ♥




















Wanna say sorry to my Man..
I'm a stupid girl Friend..
Just know to cook spaghetti...
I will try my best to cook others for you..
But I know you will forgive me ♥

















''Secret Recipe..
Fine Quality Cakes...''

I lub so much their cheese cake...even I knew is fat...
But he bought me..
sure I'll finish it...


My man,
Really wanna thx u...
I don't know how to show You..
But You know my Heart then OKAY ady ^^


Elaine Chong Yi Lin,
haha...
don't get shock when I write this for you..
now...You had enter to KDU...
every time I saw your post..
almost 70% also emo...
hehe...
everything got me Eng Xiao Zhuang & Eve Cheok Boon Ang k...
em..
Recently you also bz yours...n me n eve also bz final..
find day to starbucks talk ok!
We ♥ You ..

Meaningless....

Don't know why...

this few day keep crying without anyone know...

feel like....

no one care my anymore..

just feel like...

my best friend...my family...even him ...

also gone....><

i'm not wanna say this to hurt anyone of u...

em....just my feel...

i don't why will feel this also...

i'm not u all to 'tong qing' me also...

i write this just wanna release my feel....

MAYBe some of u will say i write this is to 'pok tong qing'..

so...i better stay alone....

what also decide myself...

mean...anti-social ba...

lolx....

bye bye...

I Started..

I started another life..
I started to get easy to cry...
I began to think many things..
I began to think that me do that is right or not..
I began to think that is it suffer to me arnot..
I began to think that is it better for him after I make this decision..
Maybe I'm always do something wrong..
Maybe I often treat him not very friendly and not considerate..
Sorry
I know you have worked very hard to do the best..
原谅我是这样的女生。。
I think..
I need to CHANGE..
But ..
Give me some times..

I ♥ U

Since we had together around 2 weeks..
Although only 2 weeks..
but mayb everyday also got meet...
So din't feel like just only 2 weeks..
Really happy be with you...
erm..and hope you don't always worry about me...
About those 'friends' ...lol...you know i talking who 1...
I'm sorry...
I never intro you to all my friends and my family..
I'm so sorry that I din't inform to my parents me already in the relation with you..
And about the facebook status...I'm really sorry about that..
I will change it when get the right timing...
Don't too mind about it please...
you know i always be with you okay already right? hehe...

To my boy friend!
Bosco Chen Woon Beng...lol
hahaha..
I hope that you won't because of me then you seldom meet with your friends
I hope that you won't because of me then you din't go play ball..
I hope that you won't because of me you ARGUE with your friends..
hahaha...
I hope that you won't because of me you feel stres...
I hope that you won't because of me you feel suffer...
lol...i know you care me...
but i really don't wan to saw you suffer because of me...
hahhahahhahaha....
u get what i mean i think..XD

Let's start our love story...lol

Let's collect our photo...^^


Thanks for everthing my dear...^^

WOW

lol...
i getting lazy and lazy and lazy..
haha...lazy to update my blog..
hehe...
my birthday coming soon...
lolx..actually i really wish that all my friends will celebrate with me..
mayb some of u will be busy..
but i really hope that u people can wish me..
even a MESSAGE...
get ur message that mean u still care me..
still put me in ur heart...XD
i'm still ur fren..
hm...
after my birthday..
i know that HELLO KITTY-JASPER DOMINIC HO CHIA HUNG..
POWER PUFF GAL-LAI MEI TENG...
& POWER RANGERS-CHIA JO YEE
BIRTHDAY COMING SOON also ^^
now still thinking wanna buy what present for them...
hahahaa....
3 of u ar...
give me some idea...XD
hope can celebrate birthday together also...
god bless u & me...
hehe..



WEEK 8 is coming soon!!!
my DRAMA ASSIGNMENT!!!
i still haven touch it!!!
how to act?
where to act?
what to act?
sweat..no idea at all!!!
SHIT...
GOD BLESS ME...
AH MEN...
lol..
nothing to write ady..
bb^^

Babe joey...

写给你看的！！！！
当从他那里听到那个消息
我真的很替你生气
哈哈
你真的很笨..
也许你不希望一些事情发生..
但是应该说的你真的应该说出来！
该劝的人都已经给你逼到疯了！
我要说的你都应该会背了吧...
虽然一些事情已经是事实..
该帮的我们都会帮你..
所以！
不要太牛！！！
ting ting我们的意见..
we are always beside you..
lolx..
ONLY AVAILABLE for babe joey..
nah...don't say just write to babe nelle la...
XD
LOVE U ALWAYS...
BABE TENG ALSO...^^

FRIENDS...

The world has changed..
Or people began to changed ..
Recently..some of friends has changed..
Some become more mature..
Are also some changes naive...
We may treat them as friends...
but perhaps people did not think we are friends ..
Maybe people are selfish..
Perhaps the eyes of a friend you only for 'li yong'..
Therefor, we can't do anything also...
Start feel that friends become less and less..
May also be some misunderstanding
But really hope..
we are friends ..
And not a stranger..
Really hope that friends can be together!
As the same as before!

What is the world's now?
Right!
All of you!
All my fault!
Sometimes I really feel that I was superfluous!
I have put everything in my heart!
I am working for my own,Have you ever thought how I feel
In fact you will not be understand at all!!!
I am also is a human..
I am just a girl..
Mayb you will say that I'm ady 19 years old..
But you already 50 years old..
can use your brain think about it Well?
I am also your daughter..
Mayb in your eyes what I did also is Superfluous..
In your eyes daughter is just the maid..( what is this?daughter is the people that done all the housework? what are you thinking? now 21st century!! don't use ur nonsense brain to think this agian!! )
YOUR LOVELY SON only is your baby!
What they did also right...
I really would rather I not your daughter!
I do not need you!
I had my own life might be happier
Do not these things ever cried every time!
Perhaps you will say that Without you, this world would not have my existence
But I can choose not to do?
Mayb you all will say this is just the non-sense..
But ... if you are the only son or daughter..
You really won't feel this....



And thanks you my baby teng..
After I Quarrel with them I really cry non-stop..
I really don't know whether can tell who after this..
After I release this..
Really fell more better..
I really hope don't wan to stay at home tonight..
But u all cant do this..
Fine..
Really got a bit DISAPPOinted...

....

Hide my own..
I really don't know why..
I really don't know how to explain my feel right now...
Even in front of my parents or my best friend..
I also try to cover my own thoughts..
even always scold whatever they like...
I just keep quite..EVEN I'M RIGHT..





Suddenly...
erm...
don't know what can I write right now..
ya...
this is my life I think...
HIDE MY OWN...

updated!!!!!!!!!! lol..

Yeah Yeah..

Since I buy the new modem..

then I NEVER UPDATE my blog already...

hehe...

and below this is the picture that hang out with friends...

and because of lazy...i also din't upload all picture..

lol...can refer at my facebook...wahahha...

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16.09.2009
Chong Pei Yee birthday..

erm...I also confuse that when I knew her...

erm...If not wrong is about form 3 knew her..

she is my friend intro me one...

and we start sms...==

lol...after that ...then know her already...

hmm....in the middle of story quite complicated...

hard to explain...

hahhaha....

but I GLAD to know her also ^^

From left, pei yee, me,lagoon and emily~
we take in toilet after sing k..^^

her birthday cake~

XD

dada...me n her...haha...

and this is lagoon...lol...

I think i know her when last year orientation week...

lol...

that day we buy the same t-shirt n same slipper..

lol...

><

anyway..

that day really quite happy sing k with 3 of them...

keep in touch ya my friends !!!!!!!!!

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I be the distributer foundation n part timer @ PAVILION

when 12nd,13rd ,19th and 20th ...

quite tired and damn 'fish' la this job...==

i stand at a place that very very very weird...

they call me stand at outdoor...

around starbucks or coffee bean there...

kanasai...

and just me alone stand at there...>.<

saw many of my friends at there also ==

damn fish...><

really no face to face them...ahhahah

this is the pavilion pass...==

lol..b4 work..

XP

the look >.<'

damn tired..

rest in the toilet..

ahahhaa....

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yeah~

17/18 .09.2009

I had join elaine and her classmate go CAMERON HIGHLAND!

lol...

erm....quite weird la..i join them..

ahahhaa...

lol....really not so many things to chat with them..

hahaha...

but at the night play till late n happy also..

GLAD TO KNOW THEM ALSO LA...

^^

all of us @ rose garden...

lalallaa...

me n elaine...

sin kong ask me when i know elaine 1...

lol...

i really know her quite long time ady le..

actuall I already know her when primary school..

she is red colour team also...

she run quite fast..

then i lost ady...lol...

i remember her because she tall ma...

then form 1 we still the same secondary school..haha...

so form 1 until now...

hehe..already 7 years...

^^

hope our friendship can keep forever

lol..with the guys..

wow..

the flower almost bigger than my face..

haha..

is it my face small?

wahhaha....

ahem...

surrounded by the flower...

wuhuu...

ahem...really pround of myself..

can take this flower n edit so nice

ahhahahhahah....

shh....

don tell other people ya...

XD

ahhha...so cutee~~~~~~~~~~

the night that with steamboat...

soso lo there de food.

XP

me n her agian...^^

mei teng ask me...

xiaoshuang , u two days also wear yellow shirt ar?

then i answer...

YES...I WEARING TWO DAYS YELLOW SHIRT..

hahhaha...

coz i'm huang xiao shuang ma,...XD

erm....we buy some beer n play poker at the appartment...

lol...we very noisy when playing card...

lol...keep shout...==

after that...

then elaine gossip with her classmate..

quite many things happen at her class...

lol...then i there listen nia...

haha...

quite interesting also...XD

at here i need to say sorry to the aunty..

lol...we had break 1 glass n 1 chopstick...

aha....

SORRY YA...

'wo bu shi gu yi de'...XD

I HOPE THAT I WON'T BE THE STRANGER THAT JOIN U ALL....

hahaha...

anyway...glad to know elaine classmate...

erm...i not really remember ur all name la...

jason,sin kong? , xiao ming n 1 more is rep rep ..

lol...this is last time i hear elaine call him like this 1...

so i just follow..

lol..

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21.09.2009

my grandfather house innovation finish...

ahhahhaa..

then we go there n pray..

hahaha..

i really first time saw so many people go there...

got 33 people..

even not all of the son n grandson la..

hehe...

lol..this is the after..

i got take the picture that when praying 1...

but at my sisster phone...

lazy to bluetooth ady..

xD

hahaha...

coz my the biggest uncle is the '......'

those help people 念经 1...

i don noe how to say the job..

ahaa...

so when we back all of the people walk around my grandpa house..

on the way...my uncle them keep shout...

'HUAT AR!!!!

hahaha....

and when burn 'money'...

my cousin them shout...

'ah gong ar...shiu lui ar!!!

shiu liao pun kor nang ar!!!"

lol...this is the broken teow chew that translate by me...

ahahhaha....

which mean...

' grandpa, now we burning 'money' to u ar...

remember receive, then after receive give us some...'

ahhahaha....

lol..

quite funny..

XD

and this make me think back that singapore movie...

lol...

wa...damn hot that day!!!

i just wear a singlet n short pants...

many mosquito there...

and all bite me 1...

kanasai==

and because of this!

my skin dark already... ><

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dada...recently really nothing to do when stay at home..

ahhaha...

can found me?

wuhuu...

mei teng say sexy neh!!!

lol...

haiz...

RECENTLY LACK OF MONEY!!!!!
LACK OF MONEY!!!!
haiz...

I WANT SHOPPING!!!!
SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!

wuhuu...

lol....using joey laptop to update my blog...
lol....long time din update...
got miss me arnot?
==
hoho...
many things happen on this month..
wahahhaha...relationship la...

hoho..even haven START...

someone in TOOMUCH ADY...lol...

3 MONTHS wor...

mayb she really is a siao lang...XD
erm...i know she don wan to admit when face to me....
XD
hahaha....come on..
u also say wat..now ady 21st century..
XD
hahhaaa...take it easy la...
hope u don let someone go away lu...
XD






LOLX...
my god....exam start at next week...
my brain still empty...
die 99 lo....

moody...

suddenly feel moody..
mayb some of the human won't facing the financial problem at all...
but don't try to look down me that i'm facing this problem...
i really try my best to earn money myself...
actually working very tired while studying...
even just get a little bit of money...
hmm...feel that i'm just EMPTY...
feel that no money..
no family...
no fren...
no lover...
no brain...
i had lost my directions..
i don't know what i really need...
MONEY=
mayb money just to cover my surface that i needed...
branded? topshop?Mng?forever 21?zara?lv?coach?

is it this is the things that i really need?

even i get it..more happy huh?

even some people all whole set also branded...

mayb will feel more happy...
mayb some people will looking at people that u are wearing which branded to be friend with u...
or looking the people whether rich arnot to be the partner...
but from our age...
financial problem really not that we want to facing...
who wan that always facing financial problem...




FAMILY,FREN=
mayb i din't shout out that i'm having some problem to my family members...
somethings really feel suffer...
no one are understand me...
when i wanna find someone to talk..
i really really don't know who can i find...
mayb some of u already in relationship...
i feel that all my fren already change...
or i already change?
i don't know...
being a human really hard..
hm..facing many problem...
i wan to be a small animal at next round...
lol..ant..




erm...
those just my suddenly want to write..
i really din mention who...
don misunderstood..

sing k day...

lol...
before sing k...
i really ANGRYYYY with my LOVELY CLASSMATE!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!!
IF U DON'T WAN CHANGE THE PRESENTATION DAY WITH ME THEN SAY LA!!!
JUST TELL ME!!!
WHY I ASK U, U IGNORE ME....
WHAT THE HELL...U KNOW WHAT IS COURTESY?
OR U CANT UNDERSTAND ENGLISH?
KESOPANNAN TAHU?
礼貌？！ 知道吗？！？
==
U BETTER DON TALK TO ME...
WTF***...






SHIT...U JUST MAKE ME NO MOOD TO CONTINUE BLOGGING...
==
AND ALSO SING K...
*@^&*!@$^*($%$^+#!$%^


lol...
OK..ENOUGH FOR THE STUPID COMPLAIN...




LETS START TO SEE THE PHOTO...lol...

erm...take this b4 mid term test start...

when samantha was in the toilet...

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YUHUU...

THE 3 LENG LUI~

owh...so bad..PENNY NOT HERE...

XD

erm...keep take take take and take....

lol...in the k box....

since MS.JOEY SNAP U 3 PEOPLE....

then i post here...

lol....

lol...MR CHONG HON KIT WAS CONCENTRATE....
shh....

LOL...AFTER SING K...

GO IN THE TOILET TAKE AGIAN...

XD

take 2..

take 3..

TAKE 4...idiot face come out...

MS CHIA JOEY ...

IN THE TOILET DRINK 'HER' WATER...

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TAKE 5..

TAKE 6

TAKE 7

TAKE 8..

TAKE 9..

10...

11...

HAHA...continue at sg wang/...

ms chia joey busy smsing...

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ya....after this...

then i accompany MS CHIA JOEY GO MONORAIL STATION...

COME....

THE STUPID STORY WAS START HERE...

WTH....

WHEN WE ON THE WAY GO TO THE STATION MONORIAL...

A VERY VERY VERY 'GEH PO' ORANG ARAB WAS APPEAR.!!!!

(when joey 勾my hand)

AND HE ASK ME : "EXCUSE ME....BOTH OF U ARE COUPLE?"
*@!^&*$@#%&@

I THOUGHT HE WANNA ASK ME WHERE THE SHOP OF WHAT...

I WANNA HELP HIM DE...

LOL...

IS IT U WAS TOO BORING IN SG WANG N NOTHING TO DO HUH?

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U BETTER DON LET ME SAW U AGIAN....

IF NOT AR...

I WILL KILL U.....

SWEAT 99...

OKAY!!!

THE END~

A VERY KANASAI DAY..

LOL...

GOOD BYE!